<?xml version='1.0' encoding='UTF-8'?><rss xmlns:atom='http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom' xmlns:openSearch='http://a9.com/-/spec/opensearchrss/1.0/' version='2.0'><channel><atom:id>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full</atom:id><lastBuildDate>Mon, 13 Mar 2006 05:58:24 +0000</lastBuildDate><title>Forbidden Fantasies</title><description></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/</link><managingEditor>Shannon</managingEditor><generator>Blogger</generator><openSearch:startIndex>1</openSearch:startIndex><openSearch:itemsPerPage>15</openSearch:itemsPerPage><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116346221460098224</guid><pubDate>Mon, 13 Nov 2006 23:50:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-13T18:57:59.934-05:00</atom:updated><title>Forbidden Forum ver 2.0!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">The Forbidden Forum now <a href="http://gabbly.com/21363.rapidforum.com/">includes chat</a>!<br /><br />Okay, not really. But thanks to regular forumite (not to mention super-friend of this site!), Dogmeat, we're trying a new thing called "Gabbly chat" out. It basically integrates chat into our forum. It seems to work pretty good so far, so give it a try! If it continues to work so well I'll replace the old forum link with a new "<a href="http://gabbly.com/21363.rapidforum.com/">Forum / Chat</a>" link, or something. Maybe just add the chat one... we'll see!<br /><br />Anyway, I'll see you in chat! (Oh, and as one early Forumite 2.0 pointed out, you can't register your chat handle *but* you can double-check whether the person named is really on, just by looking toward the bottom of the forum's main page... in other words, if someone calling themselves "Shannon" is in the chat but there's no "Shannon" online in the forum, it cat't really be me!!!)<br /><br />-shannon-</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/forbidden-forum-ver-20.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116297591335382181</guid><pubDate>Wed, 08 Nov 2006 08:48:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-08T03:51:53.370-05:00</atom:updated><title>We Are the Champions!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Qj76gNX30Q">No time, for losers, because we are the champions... of the world!</a><br /><br />I couldn't be happier. I really could not. This is just too much!<br /><br />-shannon-<br />~overwhelmed~</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/we-are-champions.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116296325933656618</guid><pubDate>Wed, 08 Nov 2006 05:18:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-08T00:20:59.363-05:00</atom:updated><title>Could it be?</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><a href="http://www.cnn.com/2006/POLITICS/11/07/election.main/index.html">Speaker Pelosi</a>? Dare I dream??</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/could-it-be.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116294225918128238</guid><pubDate>Tue, 07 Nov 2006 23:26:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-07T18:30:59.200-05:00</atom:updated><title>If you haven't voted yet it might not be too late!...</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><span style="font-weight: bold;">If you haven't voted yet it might not be too late!! <a href="http://www.swingstateproject.com/showDiary.do;jsessionid=278AB5B373184608A55AA55E915ED13D?diaryId=25">Check out this link </a>to see a map of the USA and when the polls in your state close (all times Eastern).</span><br /><br />More and more and more "irregularities" today... I'm getting very frightened, guys!!<br /><br /><a href="http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20061107/ap_on_el_ge/eln_voting_problems">According to the AP</a>: "In Arizona, three men, one of them armed, stopped Hispanic voters and questioned them outside a Tucson polling place, according to voting monitors for the Mexican American Legal Defense and Educational Fund, which photographed the incidents and reported them to the FBI.<br /><br />"In Maryland, sample ballots misidentifying the party affiliations of Republican Gov. Robert L. Ehrlich and Senate candidate Michael Steel were handed out by people bused in from out of state, The Washington Post reported on its Web site. <p>"In Virginia, election officials contacted the FBI over complaints of voter intimidation. Jean Jensen, secretary of the Board of Elections, said her office received reports of phone calls apparently encouraging voters to stay home on Election Day. Other calls directed voters to the wrong polling place."</p>Argh... btw, I don't believe the <a href="http://www.swingstateproject.com/showDiary.do;jsessionid=278AB5B373184608A55AA55E915ED13D?diaryId=25">hype about the exit polls</a>, either. I think it's another GOP tactic-- get Dems to feel over-confident so that they stay away from the polls. So please, ppl, if anyone is reading this who cares about this country and hasn't voted GO VOTE!!!<br /><br />...oh, I meant NOW! RIGHT NOW, GO GO GO!!!<br /><br />-shannon-<br />~terrified~</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/if-you-havent-voted-yet-it-might-not.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116292323774947593</guid><pubDate>Tue, 07 Nov 2006 18:08:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-07T13:13:57.773-05:00</atom:updated><title>It Begins!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">Well I just voted!!! Had to drive all over town to find the right place (I forgot I was registered under an old address) but I did it. Whew!<br /><br />I am nervous now, though... the place I went wasn't busy at *all*, plus the majority of the cars in the lot that were there had Republican bumper sticks. Plus, <a href="http://asia.news.yahoo.com/061107/ap/d8l88tj81.html">the news</a> just keeps piling in about <a href="http://kdka.com/local/local_story_311074032.html">voting problems</a> around the country (maybe Rove's <a href="http://www.local6.com/politics/10264165/detail.html">November surprise</a>?). One woman in line in front of me was being told she wasn't registered and she was PISSED, too... when I left she was on hold on her cell phone with some "right-to-vote" place, and she told me that this happened to her in '04, too (yep, she's a Dem). Has me scared... arghh!!!<br /><br />Anyway... make sure you vote today!! Unless you plan on voting for the Republicans in which case, why not stay home and relax? :) More later, bye!<br /><br />-shannon-</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/it-begins.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116290052107618068</guid><pubDate>Tue, 07 Nov 2006 11:51:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-07T06:55:21.263-05:00</atom:updated><title>Mass Suicide</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">I'm going to be live-blogging the election today. What I mean by that is that I'm going to update this site a few times today, but only to talk about the election! If you don't care about such things, I'm sorry!!!<br /><br />Anyway, if the Dems don't take the House there's going to be <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2006/11/07/us/politics/07memo.html?ei=5094&en=03ec0756df1a73c8&amp;hp=&ex=1162962000&amp;adxnnl=1&partner=homepage&amp;adxnnlx=1162899733-NAYqRQmx3ZXKB82hRCOhnQ">mass suicide</a>, according to  a leading Washington political analyst. I couldn't agree more. I'm so nervous that I've barely slept and I'm up at 6:45am blogging about politics on my porn site!!! Argh.<br /><br /><a href="http://21363.rapidforum.com/topic=100173717554">Join the discussion here</a>. I've reposted my latest comment on the issue below!<br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-size:85%;">I believe strongly that this election is extremely important yet I'm cynical about whether or not it will matter. I have a bad feeling that the Dems won't be able to do much more than gain seats in both chambers. My heart is hoping that they at least take the House but my mind is saying, "Slow down, there! Do you really think that Rove and Co. would give up power so easily?! Over something so frivolous as an election?!? Hah, naive girl!"<br /><br />I mean, we'll see! I'll be live-blogging the election tomorrow night (though I'll be inbetween my bedroom where the computer is and the living room where the TV and The Daily Show is!!)...<br /><br />-shannon-<br />~pray for country~ </span></span></span></div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/mass-suicide.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116267929845377326</guid><pubDate>Sat, 04 Nov 2006 22:24:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-04T17:31:10.266-05:00</atom:updated><title>Scary!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">I was just reading through the comments to my <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/im-back.html">last post</a> before my hiatus (again, sorry!) and I have to say that <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/2006/03/i-canttt.html#114261028100787321">this one</a> (the sixth one down by "The Big Red One") is far and away the scariest.  What I find so scary is realizing that, had I read that description of Muslim men back then, I would have probably stayed with Ali. I know that's bad.<br /><br />For the record, though, Ali and I broke up shortly after I made that post. Everyone who predicted that please raise your hand.</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/scary.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/116267295874731146</guid><pubDate>Sat, 04 Nov 2006 20:38:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-11-04T15:46:32.570-05:00</atom:updated><title>I'm Back!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">Well, I've been back for a few weeks now so I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to update the actual website. Mostly I've just been hanging out reading and posting on the <a href="http://21363.rapidforum.com/">forum</a> and working on my newest story, "<a href="http://21363.rapidforum.com/topic=101074135649">American Pothead</a>". Life is pretty hum-drum right now but that's a good thing-- I'm working two jobs, smoking a lot of weed, and dating two really cute guys (nothing exclusive just the occasional date and fuck...!).  I've also been spending more time with my older, bestest friends (who I had been neglecting for way too long) and a member of my family (omg!!), my cousin Kim. It's kind of cool getting to be a "cool older sister" with her and it's refreshing to hang out with people outside of my tiny, messed up little world, too. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's nice hanging out with people again who I don't meet at the strip club!<br /><br />I'm getting high as I'm typing this and I have a feeling I'm going to start rambling a lot if I don't stop soon! So, until later, <a href="http://pornotube.com/media.php?m=13466">here's a little gift</a> (and no, that's not me or anyone I know, it's just a little movie that I like). Later!</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/11/im-back.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/114206926709749476</guid><pubDate>Sat, 11 Mar 2006 08:52:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-03-13T00:57:50.026-05:00</atom:updated><title>I can'TTT!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">Why can't I do this? Why can't I finish writing <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/mystories.htm#ttt">Trailer Trash Teen</a>?<br /><br />I began it so long ago. It feels like a lifetime ago that I started this website and subsequently posted the first chapter of the story that has been in my heart for so, so long. I mean, I'm on like my twenty-billionth version of chapter 12! And I can't get it done. If I could just finish this chapter I know, I just know!, that I could finish the story. It's not like I don't know how I want the story to go, you know? I've always known... always!!! The problem is that I just don't know how to tell it anymore. I just... gosh, how can I tell it?!? :(<br /><br />Sorry for the drama, but... who can I say this to? I mean... I've been feeling like this ever since I finished my little easy-to-write story, <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/mystories.htm#tss">A Teen Slut's Saga</a>. I mean, that was so cake. <span style="font-weight: bold;">So fucking fun and simple and neat! </span>TTT is a totally different monster.<br /><br />And what's with my obsession with finishing a story that no one would ever publish; a story that's graphically pornographic; a story that is just... sick, a story no one even really likes?!? I mean... okay! I finsihed TSS, but did I really? No, I didn't. I got halfway through. Because yes, it does have a sequel in the works, a sequel I'm not sure I can ever finish (I'm about 2/3 of the way through).<br /><br />Why am I so obsessed? And why do I always ask questions that I already know the answers to? Grrr...<br /><br />On another topic, I have a new boyfriend! Yes, I know, you hate me. For a long (long) while now I've avoided serious relationships, and I know that plays into your fantasies of me being a total slut or whatever, and I don't mind that... in fact, I think that's part of the reason I've refrained from getting seriously involved with anyone for a while (since my last... nevermind. If you know you know, if you don't, then: Welcome to my site! :P).<br /><br />He's incredibly smart, btw. Very, very smart. Too smart for me, actually, and mark my words, that's what will ruin us...! LoL, see?!? I've already doomed us!<br /><br />But anyway! He manages the day-shift at a bookstore that's right next to the coffee-place near my work. Despite his current job he's got this sort of alpha-male thing about him, this sort of... domineering personality that really turns me on. He's not in the best of shape (he's actually a little hunky to be honest) but there's something about his... aura? Whatever. There's just something about him I find hot. His... sigh.<br /><br />He doesn't know anything about me, though. The only reason he likes me is because I'm almost ten years younger than him, I'm skinny and attractive, and I'm an obvious victim looking for a new victimizer.<br /><br />I just said a bunch of bad stuff about him! Let me be nicer:<br /><br />1.) He's smart and aggressive and totally unpretentious!<br />2.) He's honest! You know, in a real way... he never BS's me, he's just... real. Shrugs!<br />3.) If he lost 30 pounds he could be Vin Deisel's stunt double. HONEST!<br /><br />Obviously "Ali" has taken up a lot of my life recently... I spend all of my time with him, unless I'm working, but even then we text all the time... And the reason I'm typing here about him at 4am is because, obviously!, he was a jerk tonight. And I...<br /><br />...grr.<br /><br />He's Muslim. Last night I met his mother, not an American, and she hates me. I got into a fight with him about that last night. And then tonight, guess what I did? I did one of my private shows for good money given the short hours ($250!) and then went home and had the audacity to get mad that his mom would consider me a whore.<br /><br />His mom thinks I'm a whore. My only defense can be that she doesn't know what a whore I am sometimes, you know?!? And these last two months since he's been with me, you know, I figured he didn't mind me not being Muslim, that he didn't mind what I did... I mean, he never asked! I never lied, I just never told him everything. But now, suddenly, he's a 30-something born-again Muslim, and he's asking me...<br /><br />I can't even say it. Sorry, I need to log. I need to sleep!<br /><br />-shannon-<br />~rambler!~</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/03/i-canttt.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/114068290937101855</guid><pubDate>Thu, 23 Feb 2006 08:00:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-02-23T03:21:49.446-05:00</atom:updated><title>A Teen Slut's Saga is complete!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">Hey everyone!<br /><br />Sorry for not posting more recently. This new year is turning out to be an incredibly busy one! Thankfully I've found the time to complete (that's right <span style="font-style: italic;">complete!</span>) one of my stories, though.<br /><br />Yep, <span style="font-style: italic;"><a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/mystories.htm#tss">A Teen Slut's Saga</a> </span>has been finished. I just posted chapters <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/tss/ff-mat-chapter18.htm">18</a>, <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/tss/ff-mat-chapter19.htm">19</a>, and <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/tss/ff-mat-chapter20.htm">20</a>! Chapter 20 is the "epilogue", the conclusion, to this little story. Chapter 19 is rather short but contains a huge plot-development, and chapter 18 is, well...<br /><br />Sigh. Chapter 18 was hard to write. I think it's a classic case of overwriting, you know? The third or fourth draft was probably perfect, but I kept rewriting it anyway. I <span style="font-style: italic;">hope</span> it ended up interesting, hot, and true-to-character, but I don't know. I could rewrite it again (in other words, I'm not totally satisfied) but it's gotten to the point where I feel I'm <span style="font-style: italic;">totally </span>beating a dead horse.<br /><br />In any event, Chapter 18 is still very hot. I think you'll enjoy how sexual Amy becomes in it as she tries to defy her dad in her silly, adolescent way.<br /><br />Chapter 19 will (hopefully!) be surprising. I'm proud of this chapter...<br /><br />As for 20, I struggled at the end, but I think I wrapped everything up in a somewhat decent way. I leave you to judge!<br /><br />Sigh. So what's next? Well, I am working on <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/mystories.htm#ttt">TTT</a> still, of course. I really do want to finish that!!! But if fanmail (or mail in general!) keeps up, I think I'll be forced to continue the exploits of Amy Torch. Remember, her story was always intended as a two-parter. I'm halfway through that second part, too... maybe one day I'll post it! :P<br /><br />Some of you are probably wondering where I've been, what's been going on, etc. And yes, I suddenly have a LOT to fill you in on. I really do. Things have been crazy-ridiculous in my life lately. But I have to leave all that for another post because I'm just so, so, SO tired right now...!<br /><br />Sorry! Read TSS and enjoy and please comment or email... or just hang on the forums and behave like dirty little perverted boys. Seriously, you won't offend me... I'm totally used to it.<br /><br />:P<br /><br />-shannon-<br />~so tired!~</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/02/teen-sluts-saga-is-complete.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/113878459965558705</guid><pubDate>Wed, 01 Feb 2006 08:45:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-02-01T04:03:20.426-05:00</atom:updated><title>Best Fanmail Ever...!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><span style="font-style: italic;">"Your stories are like watching a car wreck over </span><span style="font-style: italic;">and over, in slow motion.... I know what is going </span><span style="font-style: italic;">to happen, but I can't turn away... I want to </span><span style="font-style: italic;">know what will follow, but I can't bear to see</span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">the booming pain... I have never seen porn so </span><span style="font-style: italic;">dark and believable." </span>--Anon<br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"></span></span></span></span></span>To whoever sent this message (it was sent to me via <a href="http://www.storiesonline.net">SOL.net</a>, anonymously):  Your comments about <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/mystories.htm#tss">TSS</a> are almost like a short poem... an haiku. :P Your words hit home to me because your feelings about TSS are <span style="font-style: italic;">exactly</span> what I wanted to convey.<br /><br />I really, <span style="font-style: italic;">really </span>hope that other people "get it", too!<br /><br />-shannon-<br />~promises to start sharing more soon!~</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/02/best-fanmail-ever.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/113861638837313386</guid><pubDate>Mon, 30 Jan 2006 10:08:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-01-30T05:19:48.386-05:00</atom:updated><title>A Teen Slut's Saga Chapter 17</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/tss/ff-mat-chapter17.htm">Posted!</a> Please comment here or in the <a href="http://21363.rapidforum.com/">forbidden forum</a>... thanks!<br /><br />-shannon-</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/01/teen-sluts-saga-chapter-17.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/113808603505978473</guid><pubDate>Tue, 24 Jan 2006 06:58:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-01-24T02:00:35.070-05:00</atom:updated><title>Frequently Asked...</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">...<a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/faq.htm">questions! Yes, I finally posted some</a>. I think I got long-winded but please, read them and comment? Thanks!<br /><br />-shannon-</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/01/frequently-asked.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/113774060557508905</guid><pubDate>Fri, 20 Jan 2006 06:47:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-01-20T02:03:25.586-05:00</atom:updated><title>A Worthwhile Sequel</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">Posted my review of the sequel to <span style="font-style: italic;"><a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/collection.htm#recep">The Receptionist</a>,</span> <a style="font-weight: bold;" href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/stuff/collection.htm#recep2"><span style="font-style: italic;">Receptionist's Bonus!</span></a> It's a great read so definitely check it out...!<br /><br />On another note, some of you are probably curious about <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/2006/01/such-response.html">the bid I placed</a> for that digital camera. Right now there's almost 13 hours left in the bid, and I'm still in the lead. Cross your fingers, people!!! I want to win this bid <span style="font-style: italic;">so fucking bad.<br /><br /></span>If I lose, btw, I'll try for another 4-megapixal cam right away. There's no way I can afford an 8-megapixal, for those of you who suggested it (wtf?!? didn't I make it clear I don't have a ton of money!?!).<br /><br />-shannon-</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/01/worthwhile-sequel.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item><item><guid isPermaLink='false'>http://www.blogger.com/feeds/8113076/posts/full/113756264549919817</guid><pubDate>Wed, 18 Jan 2006 05:09:00 +0000</pubDate><atom:updated>2006-01-18T00:37:25.560-05:00</atom:updated><title>Such a Response!</title><description><div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml">All I can say is... WOW!<br /><br />When I <a href="http://www.asstr.org/%7EForbidden_Fantasies/2006/01/would-you-buy-this.html">made this post</a> last week I didn't anticipating getting such a reaction! I've received <span style="font-style: italic;">literally</span> over one hundred e-mails on this topic since the 13th (that's 100 messages in four days!). There have been a lot of comments to that post, and a lot of <a href="http://21363.rapidforum.com/topic=100576286170">posts in the forum</a> (where a lot of people voted and sent me private-messages, too). It's amazing!<br /><br />First of all, to all of you who contacted me but did not receive a reply, I'm sorry. I've really been overwhelmed by the response, and I simply haven't had time to make a thoughtful reply to each message. I assure you that I've read all of them, however, and I've labeled them in my GMail account to "follow up" with them. I really hope I get a chance!<br /><br />Second, a lot of people have been suggesting, and not in a mean way (well, not always in a mean way!) that either I get a "real" job or a student loan to go back to school. My response to that is simple: I already have a real job, and I was denied a student loan late last month (part of the thing that brought upon this whole desperation for money). They denied me because I owe a <span style="font-style: italic;">huge </span>amount of money on my previous student loan. Even though I wouldn't need as much now, the person I talked to said that I have to wait until I've paid back most of the original loan (apparently people sometimes try and scam the system by getting another loan after they have to start paying back the first one, just to make the payments stop). Also, my credit sucks really bad (credit cards!) so I can't get a regular loan from a bank right now.<br /><br />Other people have suggested that I simply watch my expenses. Well, not to sound defensive, but I do! I'm actually really careful with my money, and I am getting by. It's just that I have car insurance, gas, rent (my biggest expense by far), cable (TV and Internet), credit-card bills, student-loan bills, medical bills (from a couple years ago), and my cell-phone to worry about, not to mention the necessities like food, clothing, and heroin (joking about the heroin!!!). I do go to the bar a lot (about twice a week with friends) but my drinks are usually paid for by others, so that's not eating away at my funds that much. Oh, and yes, I smoke, but I'm one of those rare one-pack-every-three-days smokers, so that's not a huge expense, either. I'm saying all this to let you all know that I do manage my money correctly-- I pay <span style="font-style: italic;">all my bills on time</span> now and am actually able to save a little, too. It wasn't always like this, I'll admit, but it is like that now! :P<br /><br />Sorry for that rant!!! Anyway, okay. Most people here have rejected the audio-files idea, or the phone-sex idea. I've received a lot of reasons why, and I totally understand! A couple people suggested I create "samples" of what those files would be like first. That's something I'm going to seriously consider, too, btw. But as for right now those ideas are dead.<br /><br />The majority of you seem to want pictures of me, and most of the e-mails I've recieved suggest that some of you might even pay money to see them. Here's the thing, though (some of you cared about this, most didn't): <span style="font-weight: bold;">I absolutely will not show my face!</span> I would (if I decide to do this) end up doing "custom" pictures for each person who pays for them, but I just won't show my face in them. Why? Why is it such a big deal? <span style="font-style: italic;">Because I never want my real identity linked to this site!!! </span>If this was a normal, "mainstream" adult site, I wouldn't care. But I don't want ppl I know in real life to ever discover this side of my sexuality. It would be humiliating and devestating. So... sorry! Don't ever expect to get any pictures from me with my real face in them (anymore, at least... some of you got a couple <span style="font-style: italic;">older</span> pix of me in the past, through IM and what not). I just can't risk it. Every time I've done it in the past (usually while drunk or feeling incredibly lonely)  I've spent the next three days feeling horribly anxious that someone I know at work, or through friends, or just on the street, is suddenly going to laugh at me and say, "Hey! You're Shannon, the slut who loves stories about incest and rape!!!" <span style="font-style: italic;">Shudder. </span><br /><br />Does that make me sound paranoid? I guess. I mean, I know the chances of such an encounter ever occurring are very, very small. Still, to dramatically increase the number of people who could link my face with this site (by selling pictures or whatever) would also dramatically increase the chances that I'd be "found out". If I didn't have a heart-attack first from the anxiety, the day would come when that would happen. So... in short? <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">If </span></span>I decide to provide custom self-pics for a small donation, those pix will not include my face. Also, no web-cams (scratch that idea totally... no one seems interested unless I'd show my face anyway!).<br /><br />This is where I stand now on this whole situation: I placed a bid for a digital camera (a decent one, btw!) on eBay earlier yesterday. I might lose the bid, but my intent is clear: I want a camera! If I win the bid (I doubt it... I bid pretty low) I'll consider doing the pictures thing. If I don't win the bid (or others that might follow it) I'll keep saving my money until I can afford one. I mean, there's really no point in worrying much more about this until I actually have my own digital camera, right? :P<br /><br />So that's it for the moment! Now go and enjoy the rest of the site! :)<br /><br />-shannon-</div></description><link>http://www.asstr.org/~Forbidden_Fantasies/2006/01/such-response.html</link><author>Shannon</author></item></channel></rss>