I woke up with a hangover. I didn't feel like eating, but I drank a lot of water, and showered again, washing thoroughly from top to bottom with the rough soap again. "You have really screwed up, Danny boy," I said to myself. It was obvious that Bree and Candi had been having a lot of casual sex, and that might be true of all four of them. Their comfort with getting into that situation probably meant it wasn't even their first group sex experience.
My rationalizations of the night before came back to me, and I groaned. Yes, I had not promised I would not have sex with other women, and yes, two or three of the women had explicitly told me it was okay if I did, but those girls last night were the most obnoxious girls in the school, seeing themselves as the top of the pecking order. Yes, their bodies were hot enough that my hormone-soaked brain was shut off, but that was no excuse.
The older women would probably be angry, because I had acted so insensitively, but the girls were going to be REALLY hurt, because of who it was I did that with.
Bree and her friends had swooped in on me when they saw me without my ever-present escort, probably because there were some really hot girls in there, and they were out of that loop. That bit at the end showed that they were about territory. This could get ugly.
Don't fool yourself, Danny boy. It's already ugly.
I knew the person I should speak to first, was Eva. She, at least, would understand the issues better than the others, and could advise me on damage control. Barbara might also be able to help.
Right now, though, I wanted to hide like the coward I was.
I got dressed, and laid out my clothes for the dinner at the Lawsons' house. I still had promised to take Cindy and Donna to the party after. I had had enough parties to last a lifetime, I thought.
My parents were off somewhere for the day, at some college alumni function. I took care of a few chores, then the doorbell rang. It was not even noon. My buddies were there -- Bob, Tommy, Mike, and Kent -- and they all had huge grins. Oh, shit.
"Guys," I said. "How's it going? I'm a little tired this morning."
"Yeah, I'll bet," said Bob. "I saw you last night."
Shit. I had hoped he hadn't recognized me underneath all those bodies. Oh, well. "What do you think you saw?"
"Dude, I didn't 'think' I saw anything. I saw you, naked, with Bree, Mary, Joy, and Candi, also naked, and they all looked fucked out. I talked to Jimmy this morning, and he said he had to air out the whole room because it smelled like pussy, and he got the third degree from his mom, because the bed still smelled like it this morning."
"We were wearing underwear."
"Bullshit."
"We also heard about what you did to Chuck," said Kent. "I heard he pissed himself." They all laughed hysterically at that.
"I heard you had a little run-in with Robbie, too," said Bob. "Watch out for that dude."
"Dude," said Tommy, "how did you manage to corner the four hottest babes in the school?"
"It had to be the EverClear," said Kent.
"EverClear?" I said. I didn't even know what the stuff was.
"We thought the best thing for you would be if you got fucked up last night," said Bob, "so I put a bunch of EverClear in your beer before I filled it."
"What's EverClear?"
"Grain alcohol -- 200 proof."
I stared at him, my mouth open, while they all laughed. I had never heard of the stuff.
"I don't know how fucked up you got, but you sure got fucked!" said Tommy, as they rolled with laughter.
"Yeah, I'll have to try that myself," said Bob.
"You did last night, asshole, and you threw up in my car!" said Mike.
"So tell us about it," said Kent, when the laughter had died down.
"No way," I said. "I'm in enough trouble as it is."
"Come on!"
"Not a chance," I said. "We were all wearing underwear. That's all you saw, and nothing else happened."
Bob just smiled. "I heard that you fucked all four of them."
"No you didn't."
He just smiled wider. "I heard that you came on all four of their tits, and then you fucked all four of them."
I just stared at him in horror. Oh, no. This was really, really bad. That meant Bree, or one of the other girls -- or maybe even all four -- had decided to tell people about what had gone on in the room. No one else had known about that, and I sure as hell hadn't said anything about it.
Bob jumped up with a big grin. "I KNEW it!" he crowed. "Bree told me. She told me you had said you would dump the other girls you've been hanging around, and just be with them."
"Oh, shit," I said. "No, Bob, I didn't say anything of the kind." I thought for a moment, but didn't have time to reach any conclusions, before the phone rang. I got up. "I'm still not going to say anything about what happened in that room, but you have been misinformed. That's all I'm going to say now, because this is going to be really bad, and you all have to leave, and right the fuck now! Sorry guys, but OUT!"
They got out, protesting as I shoved them, and I shut and locked the door, before running back to pick up the phone.
"Danny?" came a voice on the other end, that was trying to get the word out between sobs.
"Cindy?"
"Y-y-yes."
"Let me start by saying that I love, you, I would never hurt you on purpose, and I've just now heard -- literally as the phone was ringing with your call -- that a bunch of rumors are flying around. Some of them are true, and some of them are absolutely false. I promise not to lie to you about anything, and I will tell you the whole story, but why don't you start by telling me what is the most upsetting thing you've heard, and we'll go from there."
"I got a call from Bree Jackson. She told me what happened last night."
"What did she tell you that was so upsetting?"
"She said you told her you were dumping us!"
"Cindy," I said, "that is absolutely a lie."
"It is?" she said. "You really didn't say that?"
"No, I really didn't say that at all."
"So, you didn't have sex with all those girls last night?"
"Umm, wait a minute. I'm afraid that part of the rumor -- hang on. Did she say how many girls?"
"She said it was the whole team, and you jacked off on them all before you, before you," she whispered, "you know."
"Okay. I'm ashamed to say there is SOME truth to that. I was at a party last night, and I had one beer. One. My buddies who poured the beer, however, decided that I should get really drunk, so without telling me, they put a whole bunch of grain alcohol in my beer.
"Just after they did that, they got me to chug the beer, so I wouldn't know what was in it."
"So you don't remember what happened?"
"No, I'm afraid I DO remember it, perfectly." I told her the whole thing, including how it had started, with the four girls hauling me into a side room, and pretty much launching themselves at me, Chuck and his buddies coming in and our confrontation, and what happened after that.
I finished up with how the evening had ended, with our falling asleep, and getting seen, and the girls insisting that I break off the other relationships, and my refusal.
"Wait a minute. You are saying that they asked you to dump us, and you refused?"
"That's right. She ASKED me to dump you, and I said absolutely not. I think the words I used were something like, not in my lifetime. I'm not property, and I'm not going to be property. I haven't promised anyone I would not make love to anyone else, and I wasn't going to promise them that, either. Then Bree insisted that I promise to dump you or we would say good-bye, so I said good-bye. The last thing she said was, this isn't over."
Cindy was back to sounding happy, but she needed to hear it again. "So you had to choose between us and them, and you chose us?"
I wasn't ready to relax yet. "Actually, I refused to choose, but when they insisted, yes, that's what I did."
She laughed, happily.
"You aren't upset that I made love to the other girls?"
She hesitated, then spoke slowly. "I'd be upset if you gave me a disease, or carelessly got a girl pregnant, but no, I meant what I said about that. Other than those things, I don't mind at all."
I heard an intake of breath, and said, "who's that?" After a second, there was the slight change in sound that meant an extension had been hung up.
"Cindy, who else is at your home right now?"
"Umm, just my mom, Donna who's here on the phone with me, and my older sister."
"You'd better go find out which one of them was just listening to our whole conversation."
"Could it have been someone at your place?"
"I'm the only one here."
"I'd better go," she said, and hung up.
Good news and bad news, I thought as I hung up the phone. The good news was that Cindy and (probably) Donna were okay with my little mini-orgy last night. The bad news was that their mother or sister had heard the whole thing. Tonight would not be fun.
I had barely placed the phone in the cradle before it rang. I picked it up to greet a very upset Lita.
Lita took it much as Cindy had. She was really upset about the "dumping us" thing, until she told her mother about it, and her mother straightened her out that Bree was probably lying. Once she called me, she mostly wanted me to confirm, as Cindy had, that I still loved her, and wasn't dumping them.
Lita was okay with my making love to the other girls, too, although she said she didn't think it was a good choice on my part. She did NOT, however, want to welcome them into our circle, and said so. She also said she wanted Eva to check me out before I made love to any of them again.
With that, she hung up.
"Whoo," I said, hanging up. She would probably cool down, and she meant what she said, but she was still upset about it.
The phone hadn't been on the hook more than ten minutes when it rang again. I wondered which one it would be when I lifted it. Selina, I figured, or Rhianna.
It was Bree.
"Hello, Danny," she said, as if nothing was wrong, "Whatcha doing?"
"Damage control," I said, as the doorbell rang. "Hang on a second," I said, and put the phone down. I walked to the door, and Selina, Barbara, Lita, Maria, Kate, and Eva were all there. Selina had tears on her face, but they all looked pissed.
I opened the door, put my finger to my lips, and said, quietly, "You've heard some truth and some lies. I'll tell you all of it, but Bree called as the doorbell rang just now, and you might as well start by listening to our conversation." I put my finger to my lips again, and waved them in.
I picked up the phone, "Yes, Bree, are you still there?"
"Yes, Danny. I was wondering when we can next get together."
"When we can next get together? Well, I'll tell you, Bree, that I've learned some things this morning that bother me."
"Oh? Like what?"
"For one, I found out from my buddies that they spiked my beer with grain alcohol, so that one beer I had was like drinking a half-pint of whiskey. That doesn't absolve me of my actions, but that certainly affected my judgment."
I turned to face the six grim-faced women in my kitchen as I said the next bit. "For another, I've been learning that, while I did enjoy making love to you, Joy, Mary, and Candi last night, that my trust in you was not well-founded.
"You and your friends basically way-laid me last night, and I accept my part in choosing to make love to you, but you told me as part of it, that you were doing so because you wanted to see what the others saw in me, and you clearly thought I had been making love to the others."
"Are you saying now that you haven't been?"
"Bree, I'm telling you now, just as I told you last night, that my relationships with anyone else are not your business. I also told you that I was not in this lifetime going to 'dump' anyone I loved, and you told me, if you will recall, that we would have to say good-bye if that was the case. I said good-bye, and you drove off, although your last remark, that this isn't over, did not make sense until this morning."
"Danny," she said, "I love you." I could tell she was starting to cry -- if it wasn't an act. I didn't think it was, but how could I tell, after what she had done?
"You LOVE me?" I said. "Bree, if you loved me, then why did you go to a great deal of trouble to wound some people I love more than life itself? If you loved me, why would you lie, just to hurt other people I love? Love isn't jealous, Bree. I'm deeply ashamed I let you deceive me the way you did, but it won't happen again."
"We just don't want to share you," she sobbed.
"Then you should have given some thought about the love that you wanted," I said, more gently. "Bree, think about it. What made the sex with me special, for you?"
"What?"
"You -- and Joy, Mary, and Candi -- said it was better than you had ever had in your life. Can you tell me why?" I was speaking more calmly, now.
"I, well, I don't know, I guess I felt more loved with you, and that just made everything, well, better."
"It did indeed, Bree," I said, still speaking gently, "and it wasn't faked; I meant it. What you need to do is ask yourself what that love means. When you do, you may realize it is something that you cannot lock up in a cage or possess, however much you want to. It isn't something you can keep to yourself, without destroying it. It is something that is given freely or not had at all."
She was crying more brokenly, now. "Give me another chance?"
"Bree," I said, "you really hurt some people I have laid down my life for, more than once. We have a lot of wounded hearts to heal, including my own, because I am wounded by knowing that I have done this to them. I cannot think about anything else with you or any of the others until that is all healed. Even then, I would need to learn that I can trust you, and everything you have done so far shows me that I can NOT trust you."
"Pleeeease!"
"Bree, I'm not going to rule it out," I said.
"You're not?"
"No. But there will be no chance of opening that door again, with any of you, until the wounds I have caused with ones that I love are fully healed and forgiven, and I have some way that I can KNOW that you could be trusted not to hurt them again. With those things, then yes, it's a possibility. Without them, no chance at all."
"Can we get together later today and talk?"
"No, Bree. I have to go now," I said, and gently hung up the phone. I could hear her screaming "pleeeease!" as I hung up the receiver.
There was silence in the kitchen, and I had to get a tissue and wipe my eyes and blow my nose, before looking up at the six women in front of me. They didn't look so angry anymore; mostly, they looked shaken.
"I should be saying this to everyone," I said, "but I am sorry. I really made an ass of myself last night, a bunch of different ways."
"Why were you crying just now, Danny?" asked Maria.
I took a shaky breath. "I, I hated hanging up on her like that. Even with all the harm she has done, she was just fighting to get more love for herself, in the only way she knew. It hurt me terribly to do that, because I think it would have the potential to transform her, from the person she has become and is becoming, into the person I think she should be." I had to wipe my eyes again, and I noticed Maria was blinking, too.
"You deserve to know the full story," I said, and launched into it. I was only a few minutes in, when Rhianna and Elise came in, so I started over. Cindy and Donna had essentially heard the whole thing already.
I told them the bare facts of what I had done, and with whom, and the rough details of what had happened, including the confrontation with Chuck, and about our being seen, and about what they had asked me to do at the end, and what Bree had done when I had refused.
When I got to the end, I said, "I left a few things out of that, since I didn't want you to think I was trying to make excuses. You deserve to know the full story, though, so I don't want to leave anything out."
Then I told them about the grain alcohol in the beer, although most of them had heard me tell Bree about that. I also told about what had been going on with my hormones that week. "I've been going absolutely crazy, the last couple of days. When I got to that party, my balls were already in pain, and when those four women got me in the room and closed the door, well,"
I smiled, embarrassed. "I guess I learned a few things last weekend. For one thing, I learned a lot about body language that I didn't realize I was learning. When Bree came up to me at the party, despite the fact that I was starting to be affected by all the alcohol, I knew as soon as I turned around that Bree wanted me to have sex with her."
All the women smiled at that, which was the first time that had happened.
"I still don't know how I knew that, but I was sure of it. When Mary came up, I was less certain of what she wanted, but I was still sure she was feeling really horny.
"I didn't have time to think about this before they literally dragged me into the other room and shut the door. As soon as I did, several things were clear to me. For one, here were four beautiful girls who really wanted, if you'll excuse the expression, to be fucked. They weren't in there to talk, or even to kiss or pet. They wanted a penis to spray cum in their vaginas, and that was what they came for.
"I'm not excusing my actions, but it was pretty hard to resist. At the same time, the rationalizing part of my brain was thinking about you all, and reminding me that no one had demanded that I not make love to other women, and in fact, that you all had specifically told me I COULD make love to other women.
"The other factor in that was the fact that I had been on overdrive sperm production all through the three-day weekend, but in four days since then, I had not come once."
I smiled at Rhianna. "I think the amount to which my hormones were affecting my thinking is similar to how strongly Rhianna's hormones were affecting her thinking about having a baby. Nothing's wrong with the instincts or the feelings, but the hormones can really mess up our ability to make good decisions."
"You've got that right," said Rhianna.
I laughed. "Anyway, I don't know if this was a one-time physiological aftereffect from that weekend, or if it's going to be a long-term issue, but I'm going to have to watch that, or my hormone levels will get me into trouble, if I don't find some way to relieve the pressure.
"So that's it," I said, and waited for the stoning to begin.
Silence. They were mostly just looking at me.
"Let's make sure we have everything clear," said Eva.
"Okay."
"You were at this party, and your friends had slipped you a bunch of alcohol without your knowing it."
"Yes."
"Then these girls pull you into a room, and you could see they wanted to have sex with you, and you were making up your mind to make love to them, when the other boys came in."
"Yeah, that's about right. Things were happening fast, but that sounds right. Candi grabbed me and started kissing me before the boys came in."
"Okay. The boys came in, you stopped the bully, what's his name? Chuck, from hurting Candi, and you chased him and the others out, right?"
"Yes."
"Then you made love to four cheerleaders at once, is that it?"
I laughed, sheepishly. "I guess it is."
"but you jerked off on all their tits together, then fucked all four of them?"
"Yes. I ate two of them, too."
"and they all four had orgasms?"
"Yeah, they all came, big-time."
"Did you come in all their vaginas?"
"All except Mary's. I used a condom on her. The rest said they were on the pill."
"Did Mary ask you to use a condom?"
"Umm, No. I was going to make love to Bree first, and asked her if she was on the pill. She said she was, and Candi and Joy said they were, too, and Mary said she wasn't. I got the condom out and put it on when it was Mary's turn, but she never asked me to use it. She thanked me after for thinking of it."
"Did they seem like they were happy, just after?"
"Oh, yeah. They just snuggled up, all four of them, and we must have all fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew, the door was popping open, and there was Jimmy, with his girlfriend and my friend Bob, behind him."
"What did you do?"
"Well, we all stared at each other for about ten seconds, and I waved at him to close the door. He tapped his watch and hooked his thumb at the door, then closed it. I didn't wake up any of the girls until the door was closed.
"He came back when we were just about ready to go. He asked us to go out the back door. The ones who had seen us were gone by then.
"We went out the back side door, and up to near where the cars were. I was going to walk them to their car, then walk home. I kissed them all, and thanked them, and they were talking about having the biggest orgasms of their lives. Candi said it was the first orgasm she'd EVER had, but all three of the others said it was the best they'd ever had.
"Then we talked a bit about eating pussy, and they said they'd like me to teach them all how to do it, and I think that's when one of them said something like -- actually, it was Bree, now that I think of it -- who said something like 'and you are dumping the harem, right?'. I said something like 'not in this lifetime,' and that's when things went downhill.
"Candi did a 'how could you do this to us' thing, which I pointed out did not work too well, when they mentioned the fact that they thought I was making love to other women when they approached me.
"I told them I was not property, and was not going to allow anyone to make me property. I said I had not promised NOT to make love to other women if I felt it was appropriate, and I was not GOING to make that promise, and if they felt we should not make love again because of it, I was okay with that.
"I was mad by that time, and was just going to leave, but then I remembered that we had been seen, and we would need to decide on a story. We talked about possibilities, and I told them I would not lie to anyone who was my lover, and that's when it really hit the fan.
"One of them was outraged that I would tell you all about it, and one of them -- Mary, I think -- insisted that I choose them over you.
"I looked her in the eye, and said, I refuse to choose. That's when Bree said, it's very simple. You choose, or we say good-bye. I kissed her, and thanked her for the wonderful experience, and said good-bye.
"That surprised her, I think. I kissed and thanked the others, then walked them to Bree's car. As she was about to leave, she said she didn't want to say good-bye. I said again that I didn't want to, either, but I wasn't going to be property, and there was no way I would agree to stop loving any of you for the sake of continuing to have sex with them.
"Then she got mad again, said this isn't over, and hit the gas."
"And you walked home?"
"Yes."
"Did you talk to anyone else last night?"
"No. My friends came by this morning, though, and Bob knew what had gone on in the room, so he had certainly talked to one of the girls. He said it was Bree. They also told me about the grain alcohol.
"While the guys were here, the phone rang, and I chased them out before answering. It was Cindy, extremely upset. Bree had just called her, and told her that I had announced that I was dumping you all.
"I went through the whole story with her that I've just told you, and Donna was sitting with her, so everyone has been filled in on the whole thing.
"As soon as I got off the phone with her, Lita called, and I went through it again with her. I had just gotten off the phone with Lita, when Bree called, and you all came to the door just then. I saw it was you, told Bree to wait, and invited you in, so you could hear my side of the conversation.
"Here's another complication, though. Someone else at the Lawson home was apparently listening in on my whole conversation with Cindy. From what Cindy said, it was either her older sister or her mother, but I'm guessing it was her mother."
"And she heard what you just told us?" said Barbara.
"Yep; all of it."
"Oh, my god," said Barbara. "As if this day wasn't complicated enough."
"Anything else?" asked Eva.
I thought about it. "That's all I can think of. I may have forgotten something, though, in everything."
Eva looked thoughtful for a moment, then said, "I have another question for you, Danny."
"Ma'am?"
She sighed. "Don't call me that, it makes me feel old, instead of the spry hottie you make me feel like when we are making love." She smiled. "What I'm wondering is why you are apologizing to us."
I blinked at her.
"As you pointed out, you never did promise not to make love to other women. We talked about trying to tie you down that way, and decided not to. So why are you apologizing?"
I looked at the others, and it was apparent they were wondering the same thing. Son of a bitch.
Yet I did want to apologize. I frowned. "You are right; I guess I don't need to apologize for making love to other girls. Honestly, with all that we had gone through, I was still not thinking of it that way."
I thought some more. "By not being careful in my choices, I was potentially exposing the group to disease. Yet, I planned to ask Eva to make sure I am clean before engaging in more, um, activities, so that would be covered, too, and no one would be at risk, so I guess I don't need to apologize there, either.
"You were potentially exposed to embarrassment when we were seen, and I do apologize for that, but that's not the biggest issue.
"The big issue, I think, is simply that I did not exercise best judgement about the character of the girls, and exposed you to the kind of meanness that Bree exercised. I do apologize for that."
"I don't see anything at all you need to apologize for," said Lita. "I was really mad at first, but it all makes sense, now."
"I'm okay, too," said Rhianna.
Kate and Selina chimed in, too.
"I think all the moms are okay with it," said Elise. "From the way you've described it, I think the only males who would have been able to resist THAT onslaught are seven days dead. I don't resent your making love to those girls at all. I'm glad you took responsibility to avoid getting them pregnant; most young men wouldn't do that. I'm also glad you are taking steps to protect us from disease.
"I don't want to bring them into our camping circle, but I wish there was a way you could do that with them again."
Several of the others looked at her in astonishment, but Elise was unperturbed. "They need what you have. They've been shallow, heading towards shallow and meaningless lives. In one moment, seeking a bit more pleasure, they stepped into the deep end, and got exposed to more love in a few minutes, I think, than any of them have met in their whole lives. Bree's reaction was only that of a shameless, shallow girl who knows she has found something that is beyond anything she's ever known, and she wants to keep it. Maybe, Danny, if she got more of your love, she wouldn't be so shallow, and yet another small part of this world would be a better place, because of you."
After a few moments to absorb all of this, Maria said, "I agree completely, but we should be focusing our attention on Cindy and Donna and their family."
"Yes. Is the plan still for you to go over there tonight, Danny?" said Eva.
"It is, but if that was her mother, it may just get canceled."
The words were hardly out of my mouth when the phone rang. It was Donna.
"Danny, I have to keep this short. My Mom listened to our conversation this morning, and she's, well, she's very upset. This would probably not be a good time for you to come over."
"Okay. Will I be able to see you?"
"I don't know, but probably not. We are grounded until school gets out, and maybe for the whole summer," she said with a sob. "I have to go." She hung up.
When I told the others, they were upset. "This is the aftermath of my choices," I said. "This is why I felt the need to apologize."
"Danny, you can't blame yourself for this one," said Elise. "They were bound to find out about this eventually, and it was always going to be difficult. It may still work out, though; don't give up yet."
"I agree," said Eva, as a car door slammed outside. I looked out the window, and could not believe what I was seeing.
Bree, Mary, Joy, and Candi were walking down the driveway.
All the women in the living room were on their feet.
I opened the door, and invited them with a gesture. As they came in, I could see that they were all fairly conservatively dressed -- nicely dressed -- and they looked serious.
When they got into the living room and saw all the women there, they stopped dead, and looked back at me in alarm.
"It's okay," I said, and waved them on into the living room. The women already there cleared off the couch, so the girls could fill it up and sit together.
The tension in the air was explosive. The cheerleaders looked around at the girls whom they knew, and the mothers whom they did not know, and back at me for guidance. All of the women except the cheerleaders had blood in their eyes.
"Your actions have created quite a stir, ladies. I believe you know Kate, Selina, Lita, and Rhianna. These are their mothers. Eva is Kate's mother, Barbara is Selina's, Maria is Lita's, and Elise is Rhianna's. Ladies, this is Bree, Joy, Mary, and Candi. They are the four ladies I made love to last night."
The girls gave a start at hearing that, and I said, "their mothers know the WHOLE story, ladies. Given what you called up their daughters to say this morning, there wasn't really any reason to keep them out of the loop.
"The other two girls you called, Cindy and Donna, are at home, grounded."
The girls just looked nervously at the four mothers, and sat still.
Elise spoke up. "Dears, perhaps we can make this easier for you. We are not happy with what you did to upset our daughters this morning, but we are not concerned about your sexual choices, and none of us plan to call your parents about any of this."
I could see that visibly relaxed the girls.
"We also know," said Elise, "that not only did you all make love to Danny last night, but that you had wanted to continue doing so, and the current foolishness only resulted from his refusal to cut off the other girls at your insistence."
The four girls on the couch were absolutely still.
"We know this," said Maria, "and we will listen to what you have to say."
"Whatever you have to say," said Eva.
We waited.
"Bree?" said Joy.
Bree sighed. "I'm working up my courage."
"Bree?" said Mary.
"I WASN'T EXPECTING PARENTS!!" she screamed.
"Bree?" I said, "Listen to me for a moment." She looked over to me, and I said, "Trust them. Trust me. It will be okay."
She looked up at me for almost half a minute, then said, quietly, "Okay."
Much more calm, Bree stood up, walked to in front of the fireplace, and faced the room. She took a deep breath, and began.
"First of all," she said, with a quiver in her voice, "I've been a complete bitch." She looked around at the four mothers in the room, gave a little sob, and went on.
"I have been the queen bee of our school, and I have been an insufferable bitch. I have presented the clean, wholesome head cheerleader look to everyone, but I have been quick to give my body to any boy, if I could take him away from another girl, or if he just seemed like, like," she swallowed, and glanced again at the mothers, "a good f- a good lay."
She looked again at the mothers, and seemed surprised to see them looking kindly at her.
After another deep breath, she went on. "I must have had sex with forty different boys in the school. I was snotty, and arrogant, and stuck up, and a total slut. My three best friends, Joy, Candi, and Mary, joined me in a lot of things. Mary didn't do the sex, so much, but Joy, Candi and I took on the whole varsity football team."
Barbara looked over at the others and raised her eyebrows. "Some things never change."
Bree continued. "We came to hate the boys, because they were just peckers with legs. They had no loyalty, no honor, and most especially no love. We would take any boy that seemed hot enough. No girl was safe from us. The four of us banded together to prove that no boy was ever faithful. When we went after them, they fell, all of them.
"Then we found out about a group of girls that were all hot, but were only interested in one guy. We were pretty sure," and she stopped, and looked at me.
"It's okay," I said, "trust them."
She nodded. "If you say so." She looked up at the mothers, and said, "We were pretty sure they were all having sex with him, and they were acting like he was the god of love or something. They all looked more head-over-heels than any girl we'd seen yet, and it was all over the SAME guy.
"We decided we wanted to find out what his secret was, and -- most especially -- to make love to him ourselves, and show the girls what he was really like.
"We didn't think we'd get a chance, until we saw him at the party last night. Then we went after him in a big way. Our plan, as we'd talked about when we set our sights to get him, was for us all four to throw ourselves at him, all at once, until he took a notion to fuck one of us. At that point, he was taken down. We would still try to get some more fun out of him, but these boys were all the same. None of them could ever handle more than one of us.
"At first, it worked fine, and we were a little disappointed at how easy it was to pull him out of the party. We all started to warm up on him, and Candi started the kissing. She was interrupted, then, by Chuck, and half of the guys on the varsity squad.
"Every single one of the guys that came into the room had made love to -- no, that's not right. I'm sorry for the language, but they had FUCKED all four of us.
"That's when things started to get strange. The guys who came in were big, and mean, and strong, and tough. We had all seen them battle it out with other guys every bit as big and mean and strong and tough.
"Then this guy, smaller than any of them, scares the shit out of Chuck, when he's about to whale on Candi. My god, I was about to come in my panties, just watching it. He also stood up to Robbie, who could scare King Kong.
"Then the guys left, and we were back in the room with this guy who was looking hotter than the sun. Oh, my god, I've never wanted to make love to anyone so badly in my whole life.
"We were going to start in on him, because he would have to be led by the pecker like all other guys, but he just TOOK us -- all four of us. It was the most amazing sex ANY of us had ever had. I would never have believed it possible, but he actually took control of all four of us, and made love to four women at once. I think each one of us got more love than she'd ever gotten while making love, ever.
"Candi told him, after, that he had given her the first orgasm of her life. I'd had dozens, but it was certainly the best one I'd ever had, by far. I've never been so relaxed, or felt so good in my life, or so complete, as just after that. It took me until this morning, after talking with him on the phone, to realize that I had never been LOVED in my whole life, until last night. All the rest was just fucking.
"Anyway, he was so loving after, that snuggling up to him and falling asleep was as natural as making love to him, and almost as sweet, we were all so spent from coming. I'd taken on more than a dozen guys in a night and worn them out, and here was one guy who could wear out me AND three other women, all by himself. Where do I sign up?
"He must have fallen asleep with us, because we were all seen, about two in the morning or so, by some people who told everyone else about it. We were all five of us naked, and the story is probably known by half the school by now. At least they didn't take any pictures.
"We got up, and went out the back way, so we wouldn't run into any of the people who had seen us, in case they didn't know who we were. We were all groggy from just waking up. We were talking about what we'd just experienced, and we were just coming to terms with the fact that all four of us had just had the most amazing sexual experience of our lives, when I made my first really huge mistake.
"I asked Danny if he was dumping his harem,"
A couple of the girls AND a couple of the women snorted at that.
"Sorry, but that was what we'd been calling them. I asked him if he was dumping them, because every single guy we'd done this to had either told us he was dumping his girlfriend and been lying, or had decided to dump her for real. We always told the girl he said he was, after, in case he changed his mind the next day.
"We didn't want to KEEP the guys, we just wanted to prove we could take them away from the other girls." She drew a shuddering breath. "I'm sorry that's so horrible, but yes, that's what we had been doing.
"Then Danny said no, he would never dump someone he loved. I think he said 'not on my life' or something like that. He wasn't mad, he just said no. When we pushed him on it, he just said if we felt we shouldn't do this again because of it, he would be okay with that.
"That's when I made my second really huge mistake. I insisted he choose between us and them, or say good-bye. He kissed me again, tenderly, and I thought I was going to faint, it felt so good. My pussy was starting to ache for him again already. He thanked me for a wonderful time, and great sex, or something like that. Then he said good-bye, and let me go.
"I was so shocked, I probably just stood there with my mouth open, as he thanked the rest of the girls, and kisssed them good-bye. Before I knew it, we were getting into my car to leave.
"Before I pulled out, I tried to tell him that I had changed my mind, that I didn't want it to be good-bye, and he said something about not wanting to be a slave, that I didn't understand. But he did say he didn't want it to be good-bye, and that's when I made the biggest mistake of all.
"I decided I was going to FORCE him to break up with all of you. Since the whole school was going to know about what we did, I would be sure to call each of the girls early in the morning, and tell them first, so they would be sure to dump him when the rumor mill confirmed it, if he didn't want to dump them.
"I told the others about my plan, and they tried to talk me out of it, but my mind was set. Ruining other people's love lives had become a habit, and the great sex we had just had made me want to try to keep it all to ourselves.
"This morning, then, I set out to break six hearts. I'd done it all before, many times, but somehow, it felt very different this time. Something was different, and I couldn't feel good about it. I made all the calls, and the girls were well and truly upset, as I knew they would be. I also called the boy who had seen us, and told him all the details about what we had done in that room, so he could tell everyone else about them. I wanted to be sure the whole school knew we had taken Danny away from his girls."
Tears were coming down her face, now, as she said, "somehow, saying 'I'm sorry' doesn't cut it, but I AM terribly sorry. I was horrible, to you, and to Danny, when all he had done was get swept away by four girls at once, and then turn around and deliver love to the four of us as best he could."
I looked over to see how the others were reacting, and I was surprised to see tears on more than one face, including Selina, Lita, and Maria. The girls on the couch were all crying.
Bree went on. "I didn't realize what was different, until I called Danny at the end. The plan was to let him know what I had done, and to get him to agree to get back together with us, so the girls would think we still had him. That would truly cement their break-up.
"He had already heard from one of you, of course, and he was pissed. Instead of screaming at me, though, he just quietly explained why our seeing each other wouldn't be possible, because of the people he loved whom I had hurt."
She swallowed, and the tears started flowing harder. "What really got to me was when he said that I had wounded HIM, because I had tricked him into taking part in something that wounded people he loved. I had never heard a guy talk about a girl that way. He wasn't praising body parts, he was talking about people he well and truly loved, and he wasn't backing down an inch from protecting them.
"He was taking full responsibility for his actions, even though we literally dragged him into that room.
"When he talked that way about them, about you all, I mean, I realized that I had stumbled into something bigger than I'd ever experienced, and I was pissing it all away by what I was trying to do.
"I asked him for another chance, and he didn't call me names, or scream at me, or anything like that." She was sobbing now, and was having a hard time getting the words out. The three on the couch were sobbing, too. Elise was handing the box of tissues around.
"Instead," said Bree, "he asked me to think about what had made making love with him special. He didn't brag, like 'wasn't I great' or anything stupid like that. He didn't talk about how wonderful it was; he just asked ME to think about it. I said it was that he loved us, and he said that was right. He didn't brag or fling it in my face; he just said it, and I knew he was telling the truth.
"All in a flash, I finally got it, but it was too late. I started begging him to give me another chance, and he did, but only sort of." She twisted a half-smile. "He said it WOULD be possible for us to get together again some day, but only after two things happened.
"The first was that all the harm we had caused would be well and truly healed, and it was quite possible that would never happen. The second was that we would have to prove that we were worthy of his trust, so he would KNOW he could trust us."
She looked at the girls. "I would add to that, that we would also have to prove that we were worthy of your trust, too. I promise you now, and this is a promise I will keep, that I will never put any move on Danny of any kind, until and unless I know that all three of those conditions have been fully met -- that all has been healed, and that Danny knows he can trust me and is okay with it, AND that YOU know you can trust me, and YOU are okay with my sharing your guy."
She smiled, finally. "Because he's really so good. that I think the four of us would be better persons our whole lives, if we could borrow him once in a while, with your full understanding and blessing. I know that's impossible, but I promised myself I would not be less than completely truthful here today."
She stopped, finally, and looked at the couch. All three of the girls finished wiping their eyes, and got up and stood with Bree by the fireplace.
"She speaks for me," said Joy, "in every word. I agree to all the conditions, and make the same promises."
"That goes for me, too," said Mary. "I've never met a man like that in all my life, and would have done anything -- did do anything -- to steal someone like him just yesterday, but I agree with it all. I agree and promise all of it."
"Me, too," said Candi. "I didn't just have my first orgasm last night. I never made love before last night, although I've had all kinds of sex, with a hundred different guys."
She stopped and the others looked at her, and then she gave a start, and said, "Oh, yeah. I agree to everything she said, and I promise it all, too."
The rest of the women in the room started to converge on them, and I said, "WAIT!"
They stopped, halfway to the girls by the fireplace, and looked at me. "You all need to sit back down," I said softly, on my feet. "We aren't quite finished."
They all sat, watching me. I had just interfered with a basic female comfort hug, but they didn't seem upset. I guess they really did trust me.
I looked at Bree. "That was amazing, Bree," I said. "I think you really may have had a change of heart today. I'd like to think it will last a lifetime. What do you think?"
She looked steadily at me. She wasn't sobbing anymore, but the tears hadn't stopped. "I don't know. I certainly hope so, and I think you may just have something to do with the answer to that question."
I nodded. "Very fairly said." I looked at the other three. "How about you three?" I said. "What made you decide to come here and lay it all out on the carpet."
Joy answered for them. "We were so shook up, and sleepy, and scared, and excited, and upset last night," she said, "that none of us were thinking straight, including Bree. We agreed to her plan to hurt you all that way, but none of us thought it all out. I felt terrible about it this morning, but couldn't get hold of Bree. I talked to Candi and Mary, though, and we agreed to get together with Bree as soon as we could, to talk it out. We still weren't sure about what had happened last night, but we wanted it to happen again, and hurting Danny's other girls wasn't the way to make that happen.
"Then Bree called me, and said she'd done it, but then had a change of heart, and wanted to see us all right away, so we all got together and she told us what had happened, and what Danny had said, and we found we were coming to the same place from different sides.
"We all decided, right then, that we had to find Danny and spill it all, and then we had to find the girls and spill it all. We were going to be truthful, no matter what, and try to undo the damage we had done. We knew you would never forgive us; what we did was unforgiveable. It wasn't Bree, either; it was all of us. We all agreed to it, every step of the way, and even if we had second thoughts, we still did the deed."
That seemed to say it for all of them.
"Can we hug them now?" asked Rhianna, on her feet. Lita was on her feet too, I saw, but none of the others were.
"NO!" I said, and there was some power in my voice. They stopped. "Sit DOWN, please." Rhianna and Lita backed up and sat, looking frustrated.
I turned back to the girls by the fireplace. "I don't want to dishonor your courage in coming here to tell the truth, or the girls' desire to surround you with love and forgiveness, but there are two more people in terrible pain from what you have done -- perhaps even an entire family -- and you have more work to do, before you can accept the rewards of your courage and your honesty. You need to take care of Cindy and Donna before any of us can let this go."
They just looked at me, and all four nodded. "What should we do?" asked Bree.
"You need to go over to their home, right now, and deal with what you find there. Cindy called me right after she got off the phone with you, this morning. I told her the entire story, from my friends spiking the beer, to all of our encounter, including my coming on your tits, and our talking after, about learning cunnilingus." The girls looked nervously at the moms, but the moms seemed placid.
"The thing is, their mother listened in on the whole conversation, and they have been grounded until the end of the school year, and maybe for the whole summer. Do what you think is right, but I think you need to tell Cindy and Donna, in front of their parents, what you just told us. Cindy and Donna need to hear your apology, and their parents need to know I'm not the terrible, womanizing ogre they've been imagining has been taking advantage of their daughters."
I glanced in the direction of the mothers, and Maria gave me a tiny thumbs up.
"Okay," said Bree, "we can do that. What should we do then?"
"Well, at that point, if Cindy and Donna want to give you a hug, and let you cry it out together, I think that's fine, because you'll have talked to everyone then.
"IF that happens, and everything is looking good, you might want to tell Cindy and Donna that the rest of their circle are over here, and would love to see them, if they aren't grounded. If their parents let them, could you give them a ride over here?"
"Well, it will be crowded," said Bree, "but I guess we could manage it."
"Good luck."
With a brief "thanks," they headed out.
"Why couldn't we hug them?" said Rhianna.
"Hush, dear," said Elise. "This way, they will still be in pain when they are talking to Cindy and Donna, who also are in pain. That will help, a lot. If Danny absolved them now, they might not be able to do what has to be done for Cindy and Donna."
Rhianna looked at me. "Do you think they will succeed?"
I took her in my arms and smiled. "Beloved, I think they will. They are very strongly motivated, because they have done the hardest part of coming clean, and they just have to repeat what they have already done for a second audience. They also know that there will be no reconciliation here, if there is not a first reconciliation there."
Elise gave a start, and said, "Rhianna, didn't you say something about a party tonight?"
"Well, *I* wasn't going to one, but I think Danny was planning to take Donna and Cindy to one, after dinner at their house."
"Which has been canceled." Elise got up. "You know, I feel like throwing a small party tonight, say for all of us, and the Lawsons, and Danny's parents, and the four girls. The young people can listen to their music, and dance, and visit, and we can visit off by ourselves with the adults."
She looked around. "I think the girls should stay here, but if any of the adults want to give me a hand, I could use the help." All three of the other mothers got up to go with her, and she said, "wait a moment; I've just had another idea. Danny, may I use your phone?"
"Of course," I said.
She had to ask me for the Lawsons' phone number, but soon, we could hear her cheerful voice in the kitchen. "Hello, this is Elise Jenkins. I believe my daughter Rhianna goes to school with Cindy and Donna. Yes, I have. Yes, it is shocking. It's been a very upsetting day."
She listened on for a few minutes, the said, "Alice? The four young women in that story are on their way to your house, right now. They should be there any moment. They just left here -- I'm with my daughter and all the other girls and their mothers, right now, at Danny's house. I think you should give them a listen.
"After you have, Alice, it was my understanding from Danny that he had been planning to have dinner at your place tonight, . . . yes, that's perfectly understandable. Yes, . . . yes . . . they are there now?
"Alice? I won't keep you, but I was going to say, that IF you want to do something other than the dinner you had planned but probably had stopped preparing for, I am having a very informal dinner party tonight at my place, for ALL the young people in this AND their parents. We would love to have you come. Here's my number, so give me a call if you want to talk -- I know I do. Bye."
She was smiling as she came out of the kitchen. "She's worried sick about her daughters, of course. I thought the dinner preparations might have been a major source of anxiety, and having the plans canceled for half the day would probably mean she would be happy to have an excuse to go out for dinner."
She looked around. "It depends on how it goes over there with the girls, but I think I helped her wrap her mind around being receptive to what they were going to say."
Before going out with the other mothers, she said, "if they come back here, please tell Bree and the others how to get to my place -- but just them, not their parents, yet. They may not know of their daughters' escapade yet, although I'm sure they will before long."
The mothers went out, and the five of us had time before we found anything out, so we cleaned up the living room. We dusted all the knick knacks, and threw out all the old magazines, and vacuumed, and cleaned the window.
When the living room was done, we went through the kitchen, and then the dining room. Kate tried to play our piano, but it was too much out of tune for her. We still sang as we worked, as long as the vacuum cleaner wasn't running.
It was almost two hours later, when we heard a car pull up. It was Bree and her friends, but just them, not the twins. They came down the walk, but they were looking cheerful. Before they got to the house, the phone rang.
It was Cindy, ecstatic. "Sorry, I just got the phone away from Mom -- she was talking to Elise. We'll see you at the party tonight -- we are no longer grounded!" she squealed.
"Oh, Danny," she said, "I hope Bree and the others can come. They did a really brave thing, coming here. Both Mom and Daddy were scary, but it's good now."
I could hear sounds of welcome and crying coming from the living room. "I have to go," I said. "I love you!"
"I love you," she said happily, and I heard the sound of the phone being snatched away.
"And I love you, too," said Donna.
"All right, girls," said a voice in the background, which had to be their mother.
I told Donna I loved her and hung up, then went to join the mutual laugh/cry/hug in the living room.
The girls hadn't been told of the party, since Mrs Lawson didn't know if they were included or not, but they were delighted when we told them.
"Do your parents know about all this?" I asked.
Bree scowled. "No, but I'm sure they will hear about it soon. Probably not before Monday, though."
"Can you tell me how much the Lawsons know?"
"They know the whole story of last night," Bree said. "We didn't tell them we thought you were having sex with their daughters, but they already knew that, from what we heard."
"Yeah, the tension in that house was like walking through electric mud," said Joy.
"But they still lifted the grounding?" I said.
"That was Bree's doing," said Mary. "She talked about what kind of person you were, and how strongly you had stood up for Cindy and Donna against the four of us, when we asked you to dump them for us."
She laughed, but it was kindly. "Their mother's head swiveled back and forth from our bodies to theirs a couple of times, and you could see her decide, right then and there, that Danny was okay, even if he WAS banging both of her daughters." It was too funny, really.
"Cindy did the rest of it," said Joy. "That took care of her mother, but her father was still upset. Cindy settled it, by telling him about something that happened on a camping trip, when you single-handedly fought off a bunch of older men to protect them. Did that really happen?"
That got big reactions from the other four, and they talked about it, retelling one of their favorite stories.
Suddenly, Candi said, "we've got to get out of here! We have a party to go to!"
About thirty seconds later, I was the only one left in the living room.